i thank you for your concern, yet i must say i only write in thsi blog to remmeber the pain, in saying that so i could back to it and realise how stupid i was, im not that stupid and i do realise theres so much mroe beyond life, but when pain takes over, its hard to think otherwise. its a normal feeling of someone, and must i say ive had 4 heartbreaks of my time, and it is abit tiring after each one passes. i wont be writing here again, as i wished for a 'private' blog to remmeber the memories that ive experienced, since im forgetful.